aboutface/ scriptures.

| maybe i didn't see what was in front of me.maybe a brainless chick flick and a small cup of pistachio ice cream can do the trick.maybe not.now its only a bolster.maybe a bottle could bring me happiness.but that happiness could only last for so long.its not even happiness.its a green light to be morally incorrect.

maybe i'm not a good enough person.i don't have fancy tricks.but i can do better.but better is a matter of opinion.i have been playing the guitar for years and i have little knowledge about theory.i have little skill.i enjoy my own writing.do i have existential problems?maybe i do.earlier tonight i wish i had another me to talk to then i thought it was a stupid idea.i brush my teeth on my bed.=/

maybe i'm bipolar.maybe thats why i stay up late and think too much and be all mad about it.im brash and reckless.i've seen myself today and i pity myself.could a song do the trick?only 4 minutes of bliss and its over.where do i search for God?in a whole bag of chips?I'd be obese if all my problems could be solved by the comfort of food.

i remember more than what really happenend.i could be delusional.i have another posts that i think i shouldn't put up.i do regret more than i admit.

this is totally unrelated to the things above.i was blog hopping yesterday.and i stumbled upon a friend's blog.hers was nothing special.but yet it is.simple and sincere.a brutally honest blog about faith,friendship and family.blood is thicker than water yes it is.you said it yourself.it made me feel small.i read her posts and it made me feel her joy.now that's a happy place.simple pleasures.simple pleasures.

i remember having a conversation with her one day.i think it was one of those real conversations.=/ i'm not good at explaining things.and she said something like "i can't believe i'm having a conversation like this with Chester!" because well you know i'm not known as a good listener cum emotionally charged adviser type guy.=/ we laughed about it.

speaking of faith,I've never made my stand on God.it is something personal that i have no answer to yet.yes I'm a Catholic.but what's in a tag?i wear it yes.but do you believe is a different thing.but i do i do.blah im tripping on glass trying as hard as i can not to stumble on my words and ultimately distort my sentences.don't quote me please.i'm not lost.just slightly confused.don't preach.

here's to many good years ahead of you.have a go at it....and i've got lotsa things i have to work out.some on my own.some by itself.you see its not about me.its about the people i know.and their choices.so heres to consequence!=/

For now,in the words of Sir Paul McCartney "let it be".=)

Godspeed.